I can talk the talk....but I'm having issues with the walk!

In my last decree I pronounced that I was going to walk the straight and narrow.  Well, that didn't really work out.  I look at it as if I am at the top of a muddy slope.  I know where the path is, but I can't get my feet to the firmer ground due to all the mud I am in at the moment.

One of my biggest challenges is support.  Don't get me wrong, I have a loving supportive husband that just wants to see me happy and healthy.  The problem is that he is naturally rail thin (as is my 7 month old son)!  He doesn't understand how I can be physically addicted to sugar and how I can't find the willpower to avoid the sweets that are in the house.  I have tried to explain the book to him (he refused to read it saying he's too busy) but he thinks its another gimmick and that you don't need to eat all organic whole foods, just watch what you eat.  He doesn't want to eat the meals I cook for myself and continues to buy high-fructose corn syrup laden foods.  How do you get past that?

I have an incredible weakness for chocolate...as we speak I am having a square of chocolate.  My addiction runs so deep that not having it in the house isn't enough.  I will actually have cravings so bad that I will go out in the cold to the store to buy something chocolate (usually chocolate ice cream, a double whammy).  What is wrong with me that I need it that badly?  Will it get better or will I always have such insatible cravings?

Like AA....Hello my name is ______, and I am a chocoholic.  There I admitted it, but what do I do now?  Do I count the number of hours, days, months I have been "clean"?  Will this be a life-long battle?  Can I ever have a candy bar again?

Mercy, do I ever need help!!!!!