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Back in Action

jenniferjordan@hotmail.com (Jennifer) — Wed, 17 Jan 2007 20:49:51 -0500

It has been a very crazy couple of weeks! Between traveling for the holidays and starting a new job I've been going nuts. I did completely fall off the Ultrametabolism wagon in December (when your staying with other people who are doing the cooking it is hard to follow a rigid diet plan) but I am proud to say that I convienced my husband to do this with me and we have been in phase I (eliminating prep week) since January 3rd.

I am not noticing as many differences in my body since the last time I did this (November for about 1.5 weeks). I am wondering if I will notice more when I start reintroducing foods. I suppose it's still early on. I have seen the scale drop thankfully by ~4 lbs.

I must say it has been a bit easier going through this with my husband as I'm not tempted by other foods as they aren't in the house. Maybe I'll make it through!

Epiphany 2,0

jenniferjordan@hotmail.com (Jennifer) — Wed, 06 Dec 2006 10:57:29 -0500

I can talk the talk....but I'm having issues with the walk!

In my last decree I pronounced that I was going to walk the straight and narrow. Well, that didn't really work out. I look at it as if I am at the top of a muddy slope. I know where the path is, but I can't get my feet to the firmer ground due to all the mud I am in at the moment.

One of my biggest challenges is support. Don't get me wrong, I have a loving supportive husband that just wants to see me happy and healthy. The problem is that he is naturally rail thin (as is my 7 month old son)! He doesn't understand how I can be physically addicted to sugar and how I can't find the willpower to avoid the sweets that are in the house. I have tried to explain the book to him (he refused to read it saying he's too busy) but he thinks its another gimmick and that you don't need to eat all organic whole foods, just watch what you eat. He doesn't want to eat the meals I cook for myself and continues to buy high-fructose corn syrup laden foods. How do you get past that?

I have an incredible weakness for chocolate...as we speak I am having a square of chocolate. My addiction runs so deep that not having it in the house isn't enough. I will actually have cravings so bad that I will go out in the cold to the store to buy something chocolate (usually chocolate ice cream, a double whammy). What is wrong with me that I need it that badly? Will it get better or will I always have such insatible cravings?

Like AA....Hello my name is ______, and I am a chocoholic. There I admitted it, but what do I do now? Do I count the number of hours, days, months I have been "clean"? Will this be a life-long battle? Can I ever have a candy bar again?

Mercy, do I ever need help!!!!!

My Epiphany

jenniferjordan@hotmail.com (Jennifer) — Sun, 03 Dec 2006 21:58:36 -0500

Today I had an epiphany.

Before I fell of the Ultra-metabolism wagon at Thanksgiving I was feeling great. There were no more stomach aches, gas, or lethargy. I actually got up the energy to go jogging a couple times. I didn't realize just how good I was feeling until just today when I thought about how sick I have felt this last week.

Every day there has been something; a stomach ache here, diarrhea there. This all came upon me while in the car today suffering from yet another upset stomach and gas. My husband was telling one of the stories he heard on the news and all I could think to myself was "Why can't you stop bothering me with this pointless banter that I don't even care about." That struck me. I wasn't feeling well and that made me lose my patience and it greatly disturbed me that I almost snapped at him about it. The sad part is that I have snapped like that before, many times. I've always put it down to me being a "to-the-point" girl but now I believe it is actually just a manifestation of my pain. I really can be quite a nice person that will listen to long stories that I don't care a thing about.

I had told myself that I would get back on the wagon (with my husband this time supporting and on it as well) after New Years, that plan has now changed and I am going to start back on it tomorrow. How could I not realizing what a difference had been made in just two weeks. Now those two weeks weren't completely pain free...I had withdrawal headaches. Hopefully those will be better this time around.

Hopefully now I will have the willpower to resist the no-no foods at the parties knowing what they truly do to me!

Wish me luck!!!!